One more...

I've got my last exam of the year tomorrow morning. It'll be good to get it over with. And then, packing, moving out, figuring out a vehicle for next week... on and on. By Friday or Saturday of next week I'll be gone fishing for 60+ days. Crazy.

I hope this summer is awesome. I really do.

I had a bit of a rough evening, dealing with doubts and fears tonight. Sometimes I'm so sure of myself it verges (or dives headfirst) into arrogance, and other times I'm so unsure I don't even know which way to turn. It scares me. I wish I could be more consistent. Sometimes I care too much, other times not enough....

Blah. I just wish life were simple sometimes, that everything would work out like a story, that I wouldn't play headgames with myself, that....

God is good. If there's one thing I've hung on to this semester, it is that. He is good, and He has a plan. And so in the midst of my self-doubt and worry and junk, I know He is there, and He is watching out for me. I'm holding on to His hand, and His plan - the best plan - will work out in the end. God is good.

I just wish I could see the future sometimes... but I guess that wouldn't work, because the future hasn't been written yet, because it's based upon our choices that we are making right now, this very second.

So I trust in God, and hold on for the ride. Sometimes it sucks, and sometimes it's amazing - and in the end, all things work for the good of those who trust in Him and work according to His purpose.

Like my dad says, anything, anything, given to God turns out better than had it not happened. and I really believe that.