This week

How do we know what is right? How do we know what is good? Christ is good. Did He have to worry about guarding his heart, about trusting too much? Or was he immune to such fears, by virtue of being God? I think patience is a big part of my journey right now. I am not a very patient person, and that is not a positive thing. If there is one thing I’ve been learning this past week, it’s that being patient is a necessary thing.
Who am I? Am I simply an observer of life, or a participant?

I am Jordan Shaw, and I trust you.

Is that a healthy title? Is it one that I should be proud of? Does it make me naive, dumb, easily hurt? Possibly. But what’s the alternative? How can I not trust? How can I not be trustworthy? These are my characteristics. To stop trusting would be to stop breathing, to stop dreaming. Can trust survive with caveats? I trust you, but I must protect myself? I trust you, but I must guard my heart? To trust, and to be trusted. Am I worthy of trust? Is anyone? How do I trust wisely? In the end, I trust Christ. And because I trust Christ, and believe He has the best possible plan, I can rest in the fact that He knows what He’s doing, even when I don’t. I may screw up, but He does not. He is completely trustworthy, and because I trust Him, I feel I can trust others, while continually leaning on His wisdom... which is sometimes shown through my friends. Am I less confused? No. But I know what direction I am going, even if the path is windy and unpredictable and at times really painful.
I am following Him, and holding on to His hand.


Tonight was Host Appreciation Night. Basically I was treated to dinner and a play in Vancouver with the other Collegium hosts. It has been a great evening, and a terrific end to a long week. The play was an amalgamation of several different fairy tales, with a liberal dash of humor thrown in, along with a side of morality and a healthy heaping of music. All in all, a great time. I love live theatre, and should really partake in it more often. And tomorrow is Easter Saturday, and my family is in town. Hopefully it will be a great day.